Time... Space... She needs both of them, not from everyone, but from me... Because is me who make her felt dilemma in this situation... At last, i know no matter how i concern about her, i still need to be away from her, let her to have a grasp of fresh air...
Today, writing this blog, is just to express my feeling, which is hard to accept but i need to accept... After the previous case, she seemed to be avoiding me. I really felt it... Felt it deep in my heart. I don't know how to accept it, but in fact, it is true. I can't avoid it already, but to accept it, with endless pain.......
Maybe it is because all the teases among her friends, making her felt "pressurize" by the situation, resulting her to be staying away from me, repelling from me... Haihz... I'm so down... This test is really tough, testing my determination, testing me whether can make it through all the obstacles... Although this is just the first one, but still it is a pain staking task... Hurt my heart everytime i try to over it...
Last night went out meet with xue qi and zi kang... We all went to Golden Bean to have our "yum-cha" activities... Of cause she also there... After that i sent her home back to her house... Although the distance is not really short, so it took some time to arrive... I really want to ask her again, but i know that would cause her to be more hatred me... Till the time she arrived at home, i managed to stay down and just say "bye" to her... watching her walk into her house without looking back... It is hurt... That moment, i know that i'm not important in her heart... Or maybe just a little bit more like good friends...
I am a loser...~
